In memory of brother

For Andrew

Over and over
Your silly laugh
Echoes in my ears
What was spoken
I cannot hear
Your hazel eyes follow me
My brother dear
To soon
To soon
You were taken
Andrew the silent one
You left and never
Will we see you again
Your name, your picture
My brother
You will remain.

Mourning of her soul

The mourning of her soul

Has just begun

Lost in a wilderness of her own

Craving the waters of life

Yet her body hostile

Her heart beating loudly

Through pain bestow

Hatred frozen through years of grief

Evil has taken control

A head split open

Blood flowing

Screams of unbelief

Eyes questioning violent blows

A mind that already knows

Her soul was dying

The rest was there

To mourn her.

Be Patient

Take my hand and gently lead
The way to your heart
Fill me from head to toe
With your love
Cover me with soft
Smoothing words of love
Be patient my love
Show me how love
And be loved
Take my hand and keep me close
Be patient my love
And love me with all your heart.

Song

A song which rhythm
Only you know
A dance through stages
Of your life
From a distance
I looked
And stayed
While music played.

You

You caused so much pain
Tell me,
What did you gain?
High for all of what
You imagined you could
Conquer the world
Courage you get
From a rush
Energy and much activity
That last for all of what
Until withdrawal symptoms kick in
That's when your family pays the price

Irritable and aggressive you are
Hallucination, paranoia sets in
Depending on whatever drug you took
Your mood swings
You're lying and stealing
Selfish that's what you are
What do you care?
Your habit!
You have to feed
Regardless of our pain
Our shame
The constant worry
The stress
The tears your brothers and sisters shed
Tell me
What did you gain?

Instant gratification
The name of your game
Self control unheard of
Marching to the beat of your cravings
A quick fix
A fellow druggie
You want to remain.

Shall I tell you

Shall I tell you why?
Always when I need you most
You left me
Shall I tell you?
How I long to have you here
Just to know you are near
To share my fear
But you've left me
Oh how I miss you
Mother dear

Shall I tell you?
About the pain
The anger and bitter taste
You left in me
Confused and searching
My way clear
I beg you, come home
Come home
I need you
Mother dear.

What's in your head

What's in your head
You told me
That you need your space
You need to be alone
Just to clear your head
Was what you said

Yet I felt it inside
That what you said
Was not
Was not, what it seems
And long before you told me
I knew
I knew
That you don't
Love me no more

First you moved into another room
And each and every day
I had to look
Into the face
That broke my heart
No no no
I said
This is too much
Then you left
To clear your head
Still it did not end there
In and out of my life
You came
Only too put the blame on me

What's in your head?
The reason
You first said
Was to clear your head
Finally it was because
You love me, no more
Bit by bit
You rip my heart apart
And in your head
I am the one
Who did you wrong?
So I cry no more
I cry no more
What is in your head
What's in your head?

Not me

This is not me
I who once was
How can it be?
I who can it be?

This is not me
I've become
I am
Only my name.

Hope

Hope I have
Faith I had
Confusion how you dare
To take my faith away.

Darkness becomes light

I have been in the depths of despair
I have been surrounded by darkness
Drowning in a pool of endless grief
Naked pain
Sorrow enclosing my very being
Clawing, fighting for survival
That leads to light
Many battles have been fought
To reach to the top
Spiritual guidance showed the way
Slowly I've reached the end
And heaven above enfolds
A kingdom where promises of salvation
Love, trust, and obedience meets
My battle of darkness

I am me

I am bold
I am free
I am happy to be me
I am bold
I am me
Courageous as can be
'cause I know me
Facing demons can't you see?
Yet happy as can be
Bold courageous and happy
As can be

Stellenbosch

Where rivers softly flow
Jacarandas bloom
And church bells ring
That's where I long to be
Streets filled with echoes of yesterday
Acorns and pines remind me of
Leisurely Sunday strolls
Where barefoot, on the Braak
We played
Stellenbosch, where childhood dreams
Has left me
My heart longs to be
Where grapes grow and wine flow
Where trees whisper and squirrels run free
Where generations of students go
Surrounded by historical buildings
Oh Stellenbosch
I carry your beauty
Wherever I go

My Heart

My heart has spoken
A language of love
It's desire to be cherished
By only you
My love

I tremble at a mere mansion
Of your name
Shivers of longing
For your touch
A kiss
By only you
My love

Your picture
I carry
For soon we shall marry
Intense heat flowing
Melting two hearts
For one has spoken
A language of true love
Where bodies unite
Into fragile night.

Hobo

Hobo

Don't look past me
Don't walk around me
I am here
Don't ignore me
I see your fear
I am here
See me, feel how bleak it can be
Miserable I should be
I come from darkness
Live through hardship
Still, I am here

Oh its so very cold out here
How long shall I wait
For someone to see me!
Don't look away
Don't walk around me
I am here
If only someone will see me.

Women

Women

For the woman in you
Refuse to be beaten
Refuse to be a victim
Talk about the pain
Do not let the suffering be in vain
Break the bondage
Make it clear
Take control
It's your life
Fight the good fight
Use your weapons of love
And take back your pride
Your dignity
Let faith set you free

Dream your dreams
Stay hoping and believe
Be bold, and courage's
You got the power within you
Go forward
Tell your story
Of victory and glory
For the beautiful woman in you.